Ok so if I can verbally give my children a list of rules they need to follow. If I can print them out and post them on the bulletin board in the kitchen. Which happens to be the most frequented place besides the bathroom. And if I can repeat and re print and reiterate these said rules fifty million times . Then why, Oh why is that it seems like only handful of those rules are ever followed a handful of those fifty million times. So to my children whom I love so very dearly. Mom has made a place for everything and everything has a place and guess what..... THE FLOOR IS NOT THAT PLACE!!!!! But I guess the same could be said of me, because just as I'm sure I will repeat myself today more times then I care to admit. My Lord is always so faithful and loving to tenderly redirect me over and over and over and over again. So today in my flesh I will seek to be slow to speak and hope to be quick in grace. For the training of God's servant is a worthy cause that takes time. Even fifty million times.
As we all sit somewhere this morning either watching or listening to the inauguration of the new President I cannot help but be extremely proud of this great nation we live in. We may not all agree on whether the better party won this election, but I think and hope that without a shadow of doubt we can all agree that we are blessed beyond all measures. We all are given free choice,free speech, and most importantly the freedom to worship without fear of persecution. I know that I serve a mighty God and so with that I urge all of us who call ourselves christians to remember that we are under His authority and we are to pray for our leaders. (Hebrews13:17-18 ) Let yourself be known not by how you disagree but how you set yourself apart from the complainers, the mockers, the ones that speak without thinking that act without concern for the outcome.(Ecc.5:6)(Mt 12:36) It is a free will that we all have been given. What will you do with your free will? How will you impact those around you ? What will you do today to live justly, to love merciful and to walk humbly with and for your God?
My whole life I have known that I was adopted but never put too much thought into the fullness of adoptions and how utterly life changing they are, for everyone.
I have the most amazing parents and one incredible sister. I have been blessed beyond all expectations my little mind could dream of.
In December of 1990 I had my second taste of what adoption is. I made a decision to follow Christ and learned an eternal perspective of adoption.
From there my heart has grown immensely regarding adoption. Mostly in part because of what the Lord has done by allowing me to see first hand as an adult what Dads and Moms go through even before they receive there children in hand.
I feel completely privileged to have seen several friends go through some of their process of adoption and then see their precious completion. Grant, Christian, Malia, Savannah, Isaac, and now little Emmile are to name a few of whose lives have been forever changed.
Adoption is life changing for all that are involved.
For the birth parents it is a sacrifice they never knew they were strong enough to make.(Eph:1:5 In love he predestined us to be adopted as His sons through Jesus Christ.)
For the families that await there children it is a testament to their endurance in faith. (Heb.11:1 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.)
And for the children it is an unimaginable feeling of completion in love.(2 Peter.1:17 "This is my son, whom I love:)
Why I share this story is because this February 28th I will turn 40 years old and for many of you you have spent the last year listening to me count down the days until I do.
Well the time is finally upon on us and, I am doing things a little different to celebrate.
I have researched a foundation called Shaohannah's Hope. It is created by Steven Curtis Chapman and his wife. He and his wife have adopted several children and created this foundation to award grants to parents adopting children.
It is my hope that all of you will join me in my big 4-0 celebration and give to a child, a soon to be family, a donation that will forever change lives.
Not flesh of my fleshNor bone of my bone,But still miraculously my own.Never forget for a single minute,You didn't grow under my heart,But in it.
I have this deep unquenchable passion for parenting not because I feel like I do it so well but simply because since the birth of my first child my life has never been more changed in a moment-by-moment way. I have laughed harder then I have ever in my life and I have cried harder too. I have learned things about myself that I never knew existed. I have patience that last a lifetime and then in a split second that patience’s is gone and I have anger that stirs in me a powerful scary feeling. I guess the thing that draws me to mom issues or parenting issues is that it has been the one thing that I have been determined to never presume I have the answers to anything but always willing to ask the questions to find the best possible path and to be available to my children. I have done more soul searching since becoming a mom and find often it is me who has to do the changing and growing before I can ask it of my children. Parenting comes in so many stages too. All of which are exhausting on there own, but you add more then one child at a different stage then look out! I can’t ever imagine not having this task of parenting and hesitantly wait for the day that they are all grown, and have children of there own so that they might experience this expression called parenting. I have so much to be thankful for in my life and most certainly my children are much of what I have to be thankful for.
So over the past few days I have spent time pondering over the Oh so many things that make be happy.
Rereading the list I have already posted and thinking... hmm, what if I got all those things? All the time. Would they bring as much joy and happiness as they do now? Maybe, probably ...I don't know... I have so much of what I need everyday to survive not only in the physical perspective but in the emotional and spiritual aspect too. I am free to eat when and where I want pretty much anytime of any day. I can call, email, text, drive over to a friends house whenever I like. I have access to over ten bibles just in my house alone. There are too many churches in the city I live in to count. All of which I can go to freely without harm. The abundance to what you have is beyond what you need. So is it wrong to make a list of the things that truly bring you joy? No. I think it has been helpful for me in keeping my perspective on the things that I need versus what I want. And what I want is to bring honor and glory to my savior whom I love and have come to know that He delights in fulfilling my list not just for my birthday but for my life.
Proverbs30: 7-9 "Two things I ask of you, O Lord; do not refuse me before I die: Keep falsehood and lies far from me; give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread. Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you and say, "Who is the Lord?" Or may become poor and steal, and so dishonor the name of my God.